Well today Me and Hero were going to hang out..
Again like yesterday it did'nt work out.
He walked down here but befor he could even reach my house his dad
\called him bitchen about his room not being clean enough after he already said it was clean enough for hijm to go, but.. I geuss he changed his mind. *ANGER BILD UP* I dont get to ever do anythign withy him other than at school, and if we do get to spend more than 15 minutes together on the weekened like today its always nutten to do or let him make out with me.. which is GETTING REALLY OLD!!! -_-x I am so tired of his bull shit too. Right this second i cant even remember what it was that was said on the phone a hour por so ago to each other but i am SO PISSED! RAWR! But yeah i know i remember in a few minutes those.

Than my mum wanted to make me feel better so she took me with
he and buyed me a coffie too's at teh lil drive threw Café. =D
and i picked out a good movie with her to watch at home after words
than we desided to investigate this nail place down the street from my house
cause fancy nails are really popular hear now and i think there pretty too.
So they sold cheaper than the place my friend Loveless got them at heheheh
and did just as a good job on mine! =P haha loveless! and mine are sparklely!
Yep there a ass to gtet use to those, I am afraid all break them! =O
But now i can be like: Hero ou better watch it jerk face or all claw out your eyes! Dx

So yeah rough day..
yester day I had a jmentle break down, today I was getting over it
and really needed some one like Hero to be around to confert me threw
the after effect5s so i could be normal by monday again....
Did'nt happen.. (Oh yeah thats why I am pissed so much =D)
So yeah i am going to be a reck tomarrow yay! =O
My mum is'nt some one i feel that confert about really going'into detail about my feelings
so it really does'nt help all that much to talk to her and cry on her shoulder.. so yeah.
On top of not having dsome oen to confert when I needed it the most he was in a bad mood
the 15 minutes i was with him and he started me by yelling whe he got mad at his dad.
Now i am just waiting for my dad to get home to top it off....
Boy.. will monday be a hard day to surive this week...

Feeling Anti~Socail- MommaEyes[/size]

mood: BEYOND PISSED music: Rape Me My Friend tags: ...

My mum says i could have like a feaver because my face is really hot and i dont feel good i feel like crap, well last night anyways i feel slightly better today and i am hoping my plans to hang with Hero will go well.

~Laters

I dont remember whats all in the conversations below.
I know there about my day so yeah, and i to tired to read tham its 10:11 PM for gods sakes.
I feel like crap cause my parents were like "OH WATCH HAILEY!" and this guy messed up
on a trick with his skate bored and the ankle bone came outa his foot and ewhhhwa...
This is right after i ate dinner, stuffed myself with chicken and a lil bit of crapy mash tatos,
not a good mix with gor pain. =P
So yeah i feel like crap not to mentions
I still have a bit of a feaver to add to it.



~Later that day:
(Copy and pasted from a conversation i geuss.)


TODAY
Sigh~

I did'nt end up with Hero, which is totally ok.
He had to help his dad today and I wnated to spend time
with my family, looking at stuff for are new house and going to the movies.
Some how all day i was having a mentle break down. Not fun.
It made alot of things seem funny when they were'nt at first.
Thna i just kinda when LOCO for a bit. Told my mum "mentle break Down"
But i geuss i said it in a joking tone, so she made nutten of it.
Not in a bad mood and ticking my mum off a lil today I dont feel like
talking to anyone, or even warning my mum i was'nt kinding. So off
to do chors and tighty the house and than to my room to read a book
isolated from everyone. Hope you had fun with your friends..


Than:
(After words Reply.)


LATER TODAY
Deep Breth

Well My mum came in right after pretty much a sent that PM
she said how she's going with dad to pick up a new matress for my bed.
I said to her finaly befor she left. "Mum I was'nt joking." and she
consernly sat down on her bed closing her door and asked me what was
wrong i ended up breaking down infront of her i know that 1/2 what
i said musten have made sence. But i feel better and she feels happy
for having me tell her whats wrong cause i tend to keep inside as
you know the hints of being upset.
So i when with her to get a matress, my dad ended up changinghis mind
as he always does and we when home. On the way home we dropped
by my Poppy's house. (Mother's Father) and brang him some more
movies to watch to keep him bizzy cause.. HE WHEN COLD TURKY 3 DAYS AGO!!!
I am SOOOOOOOO Proud Of HIM!!! He stopped drinking and smoking like cold turcky style! Cause its been making me sad lately that if he kept up his constent drunk and smoking air that he brethed constantly he would surely die soon for sure i knew it, now he has a chance to see his great grand childern. =D It totally helped my day be better than it could have. So yeah i hung and talked with him and my mum at his apartment down 2 roads from are house and he gave me a strawberry soda and i told him about my book i am reading lately. and we left. My poppy is like my 2nd Father he's been around for like eva! I love him VERY much.. and i always feel that i can tell him ANYTHING i am even thinking about talking to him about me being gay and how maybe i could tell my parents some day.


~Conversation with my mom was like:

I just had a really big break down sorta and i started talking about
how i was going to just give up on being a art theropist because
I needed a high GPA and that would nevere happen to me cause I
am sooo stupid i mean i freek out happly caus I have a "C" in history
and thats good for me. So yeah i get extemely irational when I am
that upset in the inside. So irational i started blabbering to my mum
about how i cant take nu more Bull they say about Hero to make
him look bad and stuffs, and how i did'nt want to stand up for him
anymore that i'd just break up with him and isolate from my friends
i have.. which are'nt many so i tresure them very dearly and how i'd
be the old me again and stuffs just so i would'nt have stand there bull
and my mum did'nt believe i'd do that and i would'nt just being irational
is all.. but anyways i feel better and my mum helped me out
with all that.


Rough Day~ MommaEyes

mood: crazy music: Some good song from -Nickle Back tags: ...

My feets hurt!
Its friday the 13th
means bad luck. Dx I always
get hurt on fri-13 always!
Morning~ shower dropped shampoo bottle and it hit me
right in the ankle. ouch. Than anwsered phone cause kat calls
when she's on her way to get me to take me to school, when
i anwsered and said ok i fell backwards into my door. Ow.
First Class~ I stubbed my toe.
Threw Out Day~ Hit my elbows a cupple times and Hero acsudently scrtahced my face with his thumb nail and moved the wrong direction and i hit the back of my head on a cement pole thingy building holder up thing. Dx


I was so unconfertble on my way with hero to are last class 8th period it was- english. We had those classes next to each other and we both had english weird huh? ;D
So yeah anyways lunch was befor that and at lunch i had sat in a kinda weird way on his knee. I might draw a picture to expalin that later cause i dont feel like making the effort to explain what i mean.. So yeah and he started rubbing my lower back/top of my butt and up making me leane into him chest first from the presture on my back.. Akward/Enjoyble. So it looked slightly wrong ok? =o But yeah and when we were walking to English i suddenly noticed a unconfertble wet feeling.. WAAAAA HE HAD TURNED ME ON AND I GOT WET!!! =O It was suckie! >_<;x *Whines*
So.. yeahhh... Um yep. I was unconfertble the hole walk home too.
Oh and like yeatsre day i walked all the way home with his shoes because he took mine and "TRYED" to where my tiny lil feeties shoes (they bairy fit 1/2 way on his foot) because when those shoes get wet from it raining (cause it was Dx) that start rubbing on my heel and last time they did that my heel bled all over my sock and hurt bad all day.. he remembers that. So yeah he so sweet! =D
I am hungery so laters!!!

Anti-socail much? ~MommaEyes

mood: content music: Barbie Girl YO! xD

So anyways today was a Ok day, could have been better.
I am a lil shooken up from sicence cause we were doing labs and i had to handle fire.. Ok knowing me i am piro~phobic FEAR FIRE! So like i was whining to Heart about it and he said i geuss that he would handle the fire for me.. But I had to watch still so i could make a observation on what was happen cause that was the point of the labs.. It was just candle fire i soon found out as the lit a what could be considered almost a freeken tortch of fire into the air. i had a nerves break down on the inside and on the out side my eyes looked into a glassy stare at it my hands shook and qwivered back behind heart some a bit. So yeah i had almost a exitey attack but than class ended and Hero came quick to confert me back to normal self. =O
I told hero kinda about the hole "I have already died for you." corny emo thingy and he took it pausitively like i was hoping and gave me a big kissyness. =D Well i dont feel like typing any more other than Icepick seems to like me wj=hich makes me SUPA happy and her friend Agle came up to me and asked me what name i liked better Hailey or Anney and i said i did'nt care and she made up a nick name for me calling me saomthing like Hanney or what eva. xD So yeah that made me ask myself was Liz talking about me and dose Agle want to be my friend now too? Well yeah so Ok day i am saticefide lets say that.. Anyways top to the day to yu.

Alrighty Than~ MommaEyes

mood: apathetic

*SIGH*
®andom URL time!
.... I have to Pee...





OK back!
OMFG SEX! ... what? =o


Purple!
Did it work? o-o
OMFG!
Sky Blue!
^-^ Mew! I am a HTML MASTER!!!

RAWR PINK SEXYNESS!

So anyways.. hm hm
I am going to try all kinda of HTML on here now that i figered which kind to use! Any sugestions of a color! Oh Oh! # Game! Make a # in a sertan color and all give you a surprise prize! =3
Meow. =O
I am bored and I wish Tim would have called meh, but he did'nt so Oh well! Sux for him. =] Do do do.. i am horny!! JK.. Or am I? Ok so i ate a pease of chocolate.. so what? =P
TLH
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HAH

The odd thing as much as it bugs me to have "HAH" like "Hahaha" as my name if i married Tim it would still be "HAH" -_- Gets pissy I am soooo lucky. Good thing i dont think that far ahead and that he wont love mr for that long cause I am negative YAY! Dx
Oki this song is getting bother some.
Sends it to hell. << >>
Heh.. >,,<
*Yawns* I fell alseep on my bed today.. yep..
so now i feel sick to my stomache. Ok
i am way to bored.. so yeah um ~Laters

Bored~ MommaEyes

mood: bored music: Kiss Kiss Fall In Love

1. If you could trade a body part with anyone you know who and what would it be?
I would trade my Vigina with Tim's penis.. For fun! =D
JK.. xD

2. Is it weirder to make love in your parents’ room or for your parents to make love in your room?
Eather? =O
Icky.. i dont wanna think about!
AHHHHHHHHH! Vishal Thinker!!!! AHH! Dx

3a. By some quirk of fate you run into your favorite celebrity/supermodel/fantasy object. By some other quirk of fate they start coming onto you. What do you do?
Beat them with a stick. "Down boy/girl down!!"
Than rape them with a monkey and take a picture of
it and past it all over teh news for billions of dollars.. heh. xP

3b. What if you’re in a committed relationship?
Than i am? I am in one what you talking about? o-o
Is this some kind of sceem? =o

3c. Do you ask for an autograph afterwards?
What for? o-o I mean.. if that want mine than sure oki all
sign some dinky napkin but go to hell with that man. Dx

4a. Who do you know that is least likely to wear underwear?
Uhhhhhh.... o.o I'd hope know one I know..
Sept Tim.. but theres reasons for that. xD

4b. who do you know that is least likely to change their underwear daily?
Nehhh... My brothers. ewhs. Dx

5. If you were infected by a deadly biochemical and the only way to survive was to plunge one of those huge cardiac needles through your sternum and into your heart, could you save yourself?
If i had to? o.o Uhhhh.. let me have a hert attack and my kidneys berst from shock of have'n to do that and than all get back to you on hat anwser because i have hosptial/needle trama.

6a. What part of your body do you want bigger?
I cant anwser that.. xD JK! I dont know.
My boobies are just right, my but ish too bigs. o-o
I geuss my smartnesses.. or like tallestnesses?

6b. Smaller?
Tummy? Butt?

6c. Different colour?
I want to be BLACK! JK! o.o
I like being a lil white girl thank you. xD

7. Front or rear clasp bras?
hmmmm.... Eather?
I where both. hehe.. << >>
Front may be easyer to get to.. sooo..
I need a Tim's horny radar.. JK

8. Boxers or briefs?
heck yes! Boxers man!

9. Relationships or one-night stands?
o fuck yourself..... ¬_¬x

10. Cats or dogs?
I loves both you fucking raisest bastard! xD

11. Trix or Cheerios?
Uhh..... Shrugs. I not a food person. ^_^

12a. Who would you like to dream about?
.. I dont have dreams..
I have really fricken messed up not scairey night mares.
And i got fucked up in 3 of them i had lately. o-o
But Tim i geuss... NOT Jacob. U_U

12b. What would you dream?
SEX! JK.. Or am I? o-o
Nehhh... Just stuffs..
But not happy stuffs..
cause than i am sad when i find out its a dram.

13. If you could change your name what would it be?
Toboe.
Nana.
Will.
Hope.
etc.

14. Would you rather go a week without bathing but you could change your clothes, or a week without changing clothes but you can bathe?
with out new clothes.. need bath! O_O
15. Could God create a pig so heavy that he himself could not lift it?
God is dead. -_-; lawl.

16. If you ate your own foot, would you lose weight?
I guess? WTF

17. If cats and dogs didn't have fur, would hamsters become more popular?
Nu.. ¬_¬x

18. What would the world be like if men were the ones who had to wear high heels and tight skirts?
Sexy? o-o Would they have to have childern toos? ovo

19. Do you think cows are mad that we take their milk? (things to consider: how you'd feel if a cow took your milk)
Dont toutch meh titties! RAWR! ¬o¬

20. Who would you drive crazy faster? Barney, Urkel, Mr. Rogers, or the nanny?
Mr.Roggers cause he's already fricken dead... Rest his soul.. *sigh* ... I AM OVER IT! ^_^

21a. If you could bring one book character to life, who would it be?
Hehehe... << >> You dont want to know.
*Looks threw a porno book* JK
Ummm... Haku from Tactics! A hottie! =P

21b. If you could relive one day what would it be?
... Is there any wereth doing so?
Hmm.... When i first met Tim...
*Sighs sadly* i'd try to stop myself from liking him..
and hope we'd fall in love 5 months later so what
"happened" would never have happened. U_U
..Maybe.. but i happy wih how things are now anyways..

22. One year?
hmm..
Nu not really...
They'v all kinda sucked..
so i cant really redo just one.

23a. If you could change clothes with one person who would it be?
Go to hell.. i'd switch with Myavi

23b. What about bodies?
My boobies.. Grrr... Make them gooo alllwayyyy!!! TOT

24. Who would win in a poetry slam - Shakespeare Kerouac, or Milton?
Shakey man my homeo! *Cough homo*
Just cause i actually understand him.

25. Who would win a death match between a nun and a Buddhist monk? (issues to consider: use of rulers as a weapon, martial arts)
The monk would get his ass handed to him...
<<>> Cause that supa god person is.. a witch i swere!
Burn her! *cough Kristiana* burn her!

26. Do foreigners understand English better if you speak it to them in their accent?
Um.. go to hell. ¬_¬

27. What cartoon ability would you rather have - the ability to paint a hole in the ground, solid door etc...and be able to go through it, the ability to get rolled over by a steamroller and shake yourself back to normal, or the ability to fall hundreds of feet off a cliff and be back in the next scene?
HOLE MAN!.. get you mind out of teh gutter! o-o

28a. Would you prefer your mate to be stupid and beautiful or intelligent and ugly?
Ish eating them a option?

28b. How about stupid, beautiful, and poor, or intelligent, ugly, and rich?
Again.. I am hungery..

29a. Which of the seven dwarves do you most relate to?
OMG dopey! haha.

29b. If you were the eighth dwarf what would your name be?
Whorey! JK... Beasty!!! GRRR.. You dont wanna know. ^_-

30a. Why don't men sit down when they urinate? Is it a "macho" thing to see how well they can aim? It would certainly make bathroom floor a lot cleaner (especially at night), and would give them time to think and relax.
Err.. there stupid. =P
They cant master teh tallent of
pissing on teh damn seet. xD

30b. Would it make a difference if only men were allowed to clean bathrooms?
ehh Nu? Did a stupid person write this quiz? o~o

31. In a bar fight would you be more inclined to break a beer bottle to use it as a weapon or to pick up a stool and crack it over your opponents head?
USE THE STOOL THE STOOL!! WOO!

32. Is James Bond a sex addict or just a slut?
SLUTTTTTTTTTTTT!.. O-o

33. Do you actually believe the fortunes you get in fortune cookies?
Maybe.. << >> *shrug* I collect them. ^_^

34. What's the weirdest song you've ever heard?
Unibrow song? o-o lately..

35. Do you wear your pajamas inside-out when you want it to snow?
You wanna fuck me quizy heh? Go fuck your self Non? ono'

36. Do you read the "Real Facts" on the Snapple caps?
I have'nt had one for long time.^^ idk.

37. Does your school use the cheap Styrofoam trays or the real ones?
MY elemantary school used real once.
I cant remember which school that was sence i'v moved 8 times.. but yeah i'v ha those befor! They suck ass! ^_^

38. Name three things you need to find:
1. HOPE
2. TRUST
3. SECURITY

39. Do you really think we're going to have an early spring just because the groundhog didn't see its shadow?
The ground hog did'nt seeit cause it was bizzy fucking
a weasle cause it was blind and the weasle was a
whore.. so Nu.

40. What song would you like your cellphone ringtone to be of?
Hmmm... Protege Moi (english mainly version)

41. What's your IQ?
1-800-STUPID xD

42. Do you know what a vagabond is without looking it up?
Um.. Nu? o-o Do i want to know?

43. Do you and your parents share some of the same musical interests?
Eh.. my family does'nt really share anything with me i am the out cast in my freeken family, so yeah all pass on this question.

44. If you have ripped jeans, did you rip them yourself or did they naturally get that I always get a hole in the right knee. x3

45. What's your favorite kind of book?
EVERYTHING! << >>

46. Do you ever talk to Cupid?
WTF? o-o he died just like god
and the easter bunny. =P

47. Who do you want to win the Super Bowl?
Do i fucking care? o-o

48. What manga, if any, do you read?
Uhh lots of kinda. =D

49. Which bands do you only like one song from?
*Shrug* alots.

50. Where do you find your inspiration?
STUFFS

51. What's your favorite smiley to use?
=o , Dx , =\

52. Do you own a lava lamp?
Kinda did! =D

53. Did any of your dedications ever make it onto Dedicate Live on FUSE?
Hm?

54. What's the most annoying, overplayed video on MTV/FUSE right now?
FERGIE MUST GO AND DIE TO FREEKEN HELL! o,,ox

55. How often does MySpace malfunction when you're on it?
I dont do rape.com sorry. o-o

56. Do you enjoy listening to music sung in a different language?
YES! >w<

57. Name something funny that happened today:
Ehh.. Tim's face. xD Thats was mean.. Ummm...
Liz is always funny i enjoy chatting with her when eva i get too.

58. What's one thing you need to do?
Get a license. and good grades..

59. What's the story behind how your favorite number came to be?
I was sorta whast it called.. *scratches head*
compulsive something behavor thingy and i would always count stuff in 3 and so yeah that came my lucky #. *Shrug.*

60. Are you in advanced, regular or "slower" classes?
I am stupid.. But in normal classes.. -_-;

61. What's your favorite game to play during gym class?
I hat gym.. i have nu fave.

62. Honesty; have you ever had cyber sex?
Yes.. And i will never do it again. o^o

63. Think about your favorite band, do you like their older or newer stuff better?
Um.. Nu comment.

64. What song, no matter how hard you try, can't you figure out?
Shrug..

65. What's the weirdest thing you have in your room?
You dont wanna know! haha. xD

66. Do you find guys who wear tight pants to be attractive?
Sometimes.. o-o Nehh only if Tim were wering them. =D

67. If your parents died, who would you want to live with?
*Shrugs* ....
My Poppy lives down the street.. but he's always drunk.
My dad's father and step mum live in dallas.. I like my school so nu.
Errr... Kat? Idt her mum would want that those. IDK... go die under a brige like a bum always works. =o

68. If you could magically inherit the talents of one musician, who would it be?
Hmm... Baitoben.. (SP?)

69. How often do you wear your hair up?
Its to short to where it up... -_-;

70. Do you always fall asleep hugging something?
ehh.. Nu.. some times i wish.. U_U

71. Who was the last person to annoy you?
Hmmm.. Me.. and IDK.. brother? Maybe or non..

72. What's the last weird thing you did?
You dont wanna know. lawl. ;D

73. Are you thinking about entering your school's talent show?
Nu....... Bad expearence maybe?

74. Do you still listen to old bands like Spice Girls, Nsync, O-Town, etc.?
Kinda. =D

75. Do you have any tattoos?
YESH!
above my butt "Tram Stamp" is whats called.
On my hip bone on the left side.
and my right ankle... There all fake tattoos those. xD

76. What was the last haircut you got and was it good?
Boys Cut.. its was Ok. =]

77. Is Hello Kitty overrated?
YESH! I saw a sexual one before! o.o

78. If you change your gym, what do your gym clothes look like?
We would'nt have any! ^.^

79. Do you know how to say "friend" in another language?
Yesh...
'Aime
Amigo
Suecasa
Passie xD
etc.

80. Are you interested in ancient Egyptian history?
*shrug*

81. Any of your parents/grandparents/etc. from a different country?
Yep. Irieland and scotland and norway and yesh all
those acsented places of beauty. =P

82. When you get cut, do you just wait for it to stop bleeding or use a Band-Aid?
I stand there laughing at it. =D

83. I can't think of a good question to end the survey so here's a shitty one; how was your day?
Stressful.. Could have been better but ok. Thanx for asking. =\


Done~ MommaEyes

mood: aggravated music: Protege Moi

Well anyways i feel alseep on my bed as soon as i got home.. I am TIRED! I woke up like 15 minutes later and almost jumped outa bed cause i though i was late for school but than i relise its right after school and when back to slep.. Yeah i feel stupid but hey i am TIRED! lawl..
I like totaly relised something i have to tell Hero tomarrow! I relised 9it everytime i kept looking at his eyes. But i never said it, it was like i forgot how to talk or something.. But yeah its about how he says he loves me so much he'd die for me.. i dont think he would die for me but its sweet that he says so, so all go along with it.. but yeah it had to do with that.. It was kind a emo thing to say but i want to say it to im for some reason.. heh its EMO~Corny i think: "You would die for me huh? Well i'v already died for you.."
It has to do with stuff thats happened between us this year.. cause about what had happened in the begining of the year when we first started to date.. i had died a lil on the inside and what happened when i got mad at him and he when all irrational on me and tryed to break up with me because he though i wanted too, yeah i died a lil on the inside than.. what can i say i love him.

Tiring day~ MommaEyes

mood: annoyed music: Lion King!!!

Well after last saurday when i got uhh "DH" i feel kinda akward being close to Hero now, but now i kinda feeling back to normal... still akward those some. IcePick and me i think are becoming good friends now.. or i hope cause I think she's really cool and i really do need more girls to bond with cause I think my one girl friend is'nt very um into clingyness with me at the moment her crush tords my hero is questionble all though its competely denide.. i wont worrie about pluse i dont get jellus so it would'nt bother me anyways. I been feeling qwite depressed with out a even intirely reason for it... My mind is so ful of crap i forgot who 2 ppl where on my friends list on gaiaonline.com.. again. Stress is taking over and i think my mood could be mistaken for PMS for the next why'll..

Oh well all try to get over it fats~ MommaEyes

mood: Bugged @ moment music: Protege Moi

Conversation between me and William..



I see....you are alot like me Anney...you really, really are......just like me
I know excactly how that felt for you at the time, and I know how you must feel now as well.
But let me ask you one thing, why do you still love him? Not saying that you shouldn't, but what did you find in him that made you forgive him for that? Do you really need him? Or do you really just want a person who will appreciate you and that you can love? What do you find in him that has made you cling to him for so long?




When he asks me why I still love him I reply:


.. ER he protects me.. not only protects me.. he also protects me from me.
U_U I know i am a fool.. But i am not needy and i dont be looking for nu love. I should be the only girl you'll problely eva know that wont complain about not having a boyfirend, i'v always liked being singl.. but than i met him... When i first saw him i crushed on him right alway.. when i first got to know him and he acted so friendly and cared about my feelings even know we were'nt really freinds yet.. i started to like him more than a crush.. i kept to myself though.. this was in september we hardly spoke of R/L with each other than at all.. i dont know if we really did much more than RPed than. I was almost beyond anti-socail and i could never hold a conversation with anyone, my mom always made me worrie about what other think, and i was'nt as out going- i did'nt like people to tease me and joke about me as i do now i am totaly ok with it... I was quite and un expressful.. i only wore the coor.. nu shade blacks and grey unless my mother said other wise. I am alot different sence i made frinds with him you know.. he stood up for me. he did'nt let people hurt me eather.. he did'nt let me hurt myself most of all. Thats why i love him.. he loved me befor he even knew me.. and he never knew it til' now.
*smiles slightly* yep.. thats why i love him.. He cared about me befor he really knew who i was.. He stopped me form killing my self twice too.

mood: drained music: Dream Girl tags: ...

Well Spring Vaction was ok, i mean i loved hanging with my friends and Hero for his birth day.
So yeah it was good, did'nt like my dad over Vaction but thats a norm so oh well. All get over it.. Already have. So yeah good Vaction most time, i end up going to the park with Tim to twice over vaction.. We mounted each other for the first time over vaction.. the first time was when i threw him a surprise pick'n nick and he wanted to feed me the sandwhich i made for him and i said "Nuuus!" and bite my lips shut so he could'nt feed me and held my sandwhich in my hands. He ended up mounting me and forcing a pease of it into my mouth after a why'll of corle'n over it. xD I was like. << >> hm hm err heh.. *sweat* about it but we could both tell we both enjoyed it. Than when we walked down to walker on another walk as we always goes on he ended up mouting me again and i had already mounted him once and befor that after he did on me the first time i tryed to back and i kneed him in the balls on acsudent than desided not to try it any more than later at the park i was convenced to try again and this time i mountd him but anyways at walker middle school we when into the foot ball feild addvenglely (SP) and after trying to play base ball with a pease of broken wood and water bottle and rock we also played soccer with the water bottle and that also failed.. We tackled each other in the grass. and we ended up mouting each other again.xD he started it again too. << >> Bad boy shame shame!! << >> heh.. but when i mounted him back thats time he flipped me over so the her was between my legs mounting me and it was akward but i did'nt complaine. =P
So yueah my vaction was perverted...

(as always. xD)


Today we when to for a walk again like we always do, and i always enjoy, and we when to Mcdondals Dx.. and i buy'd frys and 3 cookies for a 1$ and he snuck free sodas as always. we ate and talked about what we would do if are kid started screaming outa control in mcdonalds like that one guys kid did, and his kid was like "WOW" O_O like some one needed to beat that kid i swere! O_o anyways.. not really beat him thats would be mean but yeah..
So yeah then we left and when to startbucks and I buyed coffie stuffs and we shared that too.
(he had nu money -_-) We finished the kid dissaplen talk and started talklking about how sex deffently can wait and than some how got into a conversation about Kat... Odd. O_o and than yeahh.. more about sex after we left and when to the park.. again. ;D *wink*
He ended up teaching me konfu kicks and punches I dont remember why and that was cool cause his konfu kick ish SEXY! and yeah so i teached him some ballet and nu one eva shail know I was in ballet befor twice! Grrr... <,,< >,,>
Yeah he lookeed silly with ballet moves and i wish i had a recorder thats on my cammera with me.xD Priceless. Than ok.. he ended up un buttoning my pants! O.O; I was like ok what eva.. and than i played with his belt.. than we started talking about unconfertblity around ppl and each other and we both ended up with are pants un button and compaiing pubect hairs.. xD it was akwardly funny yet cool at the same time that we were that confertble around each other.. i showed him my kidney scar from the surgery and than he pulled my undies out saying they were stretchie and looked down them into my crotch and i was like great now he's seen down my shirt and my pants what next? Dx but still i thought it was sorta funny too. In the end we had arm pants fassened back on and belts hooked back on too and he eneded up DRY HUMPING me against that fallin tree thingy in the back of the park were we like to hang out. O~O I cant complain that i did'nt like it but.. yeah Dry Hump.. hmmm.. akward.. and odd for Tim sorta... errr new for me... and i think him too.. well i think.. sorta.. at leats the dry part. << >> and yeah so um then we when home cause his dad called and he had to go..

I like easter this year now.. hahahahahahah.. heh.. *sweat*
Happy Easter ppl who are in to it.. Ba bye!

Naughty~ MommaEyes

mood: dirty music: decipher reflections from reality tags: ...

Well its 9:52 abd I am going to go to the park
with Hero and i have a surprise picnick for him
he dont know about, and something els heh.. *Raises eyebrows* x3

Laters~ MammaEyes

mood: bouncy

YAWN
OMGshness I have fet exauhsted sence i woke up the smorning.
I had a good day those and night so far. I when to the card shop
Border Lands and teh mall with my guy friends. Hero buyed meh
this dress from hot topic that was on sale for 24$ which ish still
alot but he did after agrueing with me about it for like 15 minutes.xD
When we desided to have me try it on and make sure it fit cause I
though i might be to fats for it, though of corse he did'nt agree
so i when to use changing room but than Lion showed up at teh hot
topic store and stood right out there with hero waiting for me but
Me being shy said that i was'nt coming out to show him unless Lion
when bai bai so Hero told Lion to go over there so he could'nt see's
and i showed him than changed back. Lion laughted and said "heh you
were embairsed which i though was sorta funny to and we hugged. x3
Than hero buyed meh teh dress and we made out a lil bits. Than brian
tooks teh city bus home with me most of the way and i when home
and fixed teh dresses zipper better and i'v worn it most of teh day.
I am exauhsted like i said so i am going to bed good night.

Love~ MammaEyes

mood: exhausted music: I wanna be your girl friend tags: i am tired

Okay, this song reminded me of Loveless and Hero for some reason. xD
Hahah I am so the black haired chick, or at least my one side of my spit personality that most people dont get to see very often which is really funny. ENJOY. ^_^

So anyways today was a even day which I liked and the last day of school for a why'll sence its not sring cation for meh and my friends yay. So lets see what hapen today, hm. Well same stuffs, sept at lunch i finaly tolf Hero why i liked that when he hugged/kissed/rubbed/ect my tummy. He shail be the only person to ever know that. Than he had a huge mentle issue about how he liked to rub my thighs because it was a trun on to me so another worlds felt good to me but he was afraid to make other people akward and wanted to do that to me so he dragged me out side so we could cuddle and stuffs, it was warm good day so it was fine.
So anyways when on with my day he TRYED not to make fun of me with the note i gave him about the tummy thng he asked e about. We ended up going to are tree after leaving liams house that we stopped by after school. Were we of corse made out as always. =D eh. We got really close to each other too and he even like mentioned a bit shyly that me making out with him a in a really short skirt did'nt help him trying to apairently "contain" him self. xD So i just like whateva, and than he kept commenting how he throw me down right there and make sweet love he says, which was jokingly... I hopes... Sorta. But yeah i think he feels the same way as me.. If we were older hm? Well got 2 go do chors but i am looking forward to going to the BorderLands card shop with my guy friends tomarrow as always, and eating some Charleys Food!! Yay!
Love yu bye byes.
P.S
I hope LoneLove Feels Better. O-o
She had been acting strange today.

~Laters MammaEyes

Well yeah today was ok for a odd day sept for leaving school early to go to the "dostors" that sucked ass. Oh i forgot to mention yesterday befor i said good bye to Hero when we were walking home and i was going to go the rest of my way home he groped my butt sorta. x3 I liked it.. xD
So anyways i cant even remember much of today but yeah it was fine.
After PE Hero gave me a spair of his pants to where today and it was funny, I had to use a belt and than i stal Brian's sweat shirt for 2 classes and i was even mistaken for a guy by my teacher. =P It was REALLY funny but yeah other than that not much. I got ChildF a birth day pressent today yay! I hope she liked it!^^ Its stuff from hot topic too! Oh yeah and um my sister pranked me again by sending hero a pictuire of me getting dressed he saw my panties! V.V; AND~ he liked it.. xP Oh well..

Laters~ MammaEyes

mood: artistic music: With In Temtation tags: panties?

This is from right after school. Its about Meg. =P
It was to cheer hm up in a teasing way he was laughing the hole time I took the picture, Hero had to go over and make him pose than run out of the picture it was REALLY funny. >w< And they had me edit it on photo shop prgram i have. =P ENJOY.. though you'll problely be like ewhh..

~MammaEyes

Ok hmm today was.. GOOD yes it was very good.
*Looks around all mischievously.*
Ok heres how my day when yay! I hung with hero most like.. Ok yeah all day other than classes.
We are good again I think.. *scratches head* I have a weight on my heart still that I cant qwite
name. Ok I really remember the day much up til' lunch.. I wonder why. << >> Sept study hall:
In study hall Hero started running his hand up my leg a lil to a high part on my thigh but still
keeping respect for me parts. I could'nt help to look up from my note I was writing and blush
extreme and stare at him real quick befor righting on teh note.. My main week spot other than
my tummy.
Theres that, that he knows where it feels good to say, rubbing my thigh truns me on.. >.<;
Eek i said it! It does! The higher he puts his hand on my thigh the more I blush and the closer
to truned on I get. Its qwite sad really and he knows it bugs me to be trun'd on in front of other
people like- In public to say. Ok yeah he can trun me on but nu way will he ever get his way with
me.. not til' I am 19 or if we got married which problely wont happen, I dont look that far ahead
I live for the NOW. But i have to admit and hopefuly LoneLove or Jame'sGirl wont tell hero but I
would have sex with him if i was'nt 15- 16 in May and that i could get pregnait, if i could'nt pregnait
and I though i was old enough to handle the emotional stuff of it i would and if he really wanted to
and if we really did love each other you know like the RIGHT person for you. Well its been almost 3
months i can rightfuly state this cant i and not be considered thinking oddly right? i mean we dated 5
months ago and loved each other in between, that means if what happened did'nt we could have been
together still now and would have made it almost 8 months which ish like half a year! OvO So yeah i'v
loved him long enough to state this feeling right? I hope so. >w<


So anyways.. Everytime he holds me really really close like pelvis to pelvis i get all truned on ish. O-o
Um yeah... But i to littles for that kind of stuffs still, so oh wells hormones will be hormones! ^_^
So anyways yeah lunch right! i was going to talk about lunch next!
So at lunch yu know we get down there we say hi to Lion and Moppie and so forth, he says lets go some
where els or something in that manner instead of were we normaly hang in B wing stair case and so yeah
we left down the hall. So he leaned against the lockers in D wing hall and hugged my waste so i would be leaning my chest against his. he kept like leaning back against the lockers so his pelvis was way out there
against mine and we both agreed it problely looked wrong to other people ho might walk alway and just made feel slightly akward cause of that. I stuck my hands in his ass pockets at one point cause i was teasing him about doing something pervy all study hall for fun and not telling him what so i did that cause i really did'nt have something pervy to do to him. =P He like stuck his hands on my ass and says something in the matter of like "Ahh you have nu pockets or i do that back to you." and insted he pats his hands on my butt cheeks one 2 or 3 times and moves his hands off my butt and i let go of his ass pockets. It was kinda funny but slightly kinda like "I did'nt think he''d actually toutch my butt like that." than he kept commenting how i sexy butt and stuff after words and i just said like "Thanx" and stuff cause I dont like my lil poochie butt its ugly.
-Oh and did i mention when i kept teasing him saying I was'nt going tell him or do teh pervy thing to him he said that he would , well not exact words but this: "I'll swoop you into a bathroom and make sweet love to you." I could'nt help to laugh just slightly befor commenting that, that was the most odd/sexaul joke thing he's said to me so far, he just agreed with a "I know I am JK" lol.

So anyways thats was odd but i had nu prob with him saying it. =P
Than after some foolen around and play fighting we when out side and i sat on his lap on one of those bench things in front of the school that look like a cemment piller fell down thats what they look like, ay. He what you can say whispered lovey stuff in my ears as always and we fooled around mores, i ended up flicken off this guy that started yelling at us "kissing makes babys!" um actually it does'nt and he and his friends were retardedly imature because 1.I was hugging him not kissing him and 2. there just plain STUPID. >.

mood: Naughty =P music: Show me love tags: oops

Its really hard to be held close to Tim.. Specaily when he holds me so
close my pelvis rubbs against his. Than I cant help to be truned on and blush.
Its embairsing but I like it. >O< Damn why does he have to be so sexy and
why does he have to be the only one who can make me feel the way
I do around him. >///< I love him.

GoodNight
~MammaEyes

Handsome
Tender
Soft
Why do you look right through me
Thinking 'No'?
I can't deny my feelings
Growing strong
I try to keep believing
Dreaming on
And every time I see you
I crave more
I wanna pull you
closer
closer
closer
closer
but you leave me feeling frozen

Choking
Back emotion
I try to keep on hoping
For a way,
A reason for us both to
Come in close
I long for you to hold me
Like your boyfriend does
And though my dream is
Slowly fading
I wanna be the
object
object
object
object
Of your passion, but it's hopeless

I can be
All your need
Won't you please
Stay with me?

I can be
All your need
Won't you please
Stay with me?

This is the song i gave to Hero about how i felt with a note right befor lunch like durring PE (which i hate PE) and he read them and apairently wrote back. He came to me at luch skipping a part of his class saying he was taking a bath room break sence we only have £ven days together at luch, other wise i have A lunch and he has B lunch, so he comes over to me sits down next to me and huggs me handing me a reply note which says about exactly what he said to me which was: "Now i understand where your coming from and i am sorry, you'll never have to run after me, Lion and me where about to run after you in a sec anyways silly.-repeats sorry like 2 more times or something." something in that manner which made me feel so much better. ^_^

But the smorning was really really akward..
I mean we did'nt really wanna hugg or sit near each other, well it was more i did'nt want to and he picked up on it an stayed alway. he sats there leaning against the stair case pole thingy under were we all always sit and looked all emo depressed like for the 5 minutes i layed on the floor all emoish like looking at him everyonce in a why'll. So got up and when and started being the bigger man going and hugging him first on the knee sence I was on the floor and he was under the stair case. He petted my head in a way for a sec thats all. Than 3 minutes later i suck in my pride and plop myself right on top of his lap between his spredded legs. xD Yep.and my face snuggled into his shoulder and i hugged him under his arm like almost around his waste and rubbed his back. I think he took that by surprise cause it took him a sec to relise i was being cuddlely for sake of being sad befor he snuggled me back with his huge warm arms around my back, we stayed like that for a why'll. Than we were all akward around each other again til' lunch.

Love~ MammaEyes

mood: Conffusled music: All the things she said

I dont know how much long I can stand this pain..
I know 15 just a lil fresh men at a high school, she does'nt know what love
is like yet nooo not at all. -_- I do.. If I did'nt i would'nt still be dating Hero.
Is it that hard for some one to just want to be loved? TT_TT
~EMO

mood: EMO music: Stand In The Rain